Off-White Bones

Phase one through six of healing

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An Understanding

What it means to be walking both dead and alive

A small catalog of six phases of what it truly means to begin to let go of the past. To understand that it makes you but also does not define who you are. I have struggled deeply, some days worse than others. Losing yourself to a person is easy it’s finding yourself again that is hard. I fought back dark thoughts and human feelings only to break down and finally start to heal. In this small story, I have found that living as remains of a person you were is never bad, it’s what you gain from it that helps to mold you into who you truly want to be.

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Phase One

I wasn’t really sure how I could actually grow from my experience; honestly how could I grow being in a tomb? I wandered around in cobwebs and dust collected hallways, admiring old pages of books and scrolls left behind from a version I once was. My bones were littered with mites and burrowing worms, eager to get out of my marrow and feel the moon light and soil on their slick skin. I held them tight into me. Burrowing sicknesses that I held close to my chest…